EP IV (Home)

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Destination

 

Quiet in the afternoon of company

In a country far from her destination

Trapped in the circles and layers of her mind

Yeah, that man can drive you crazy

 

Undress me with your promise of heaven

Don’t worry I don’t believe in love or destiny

The keys were easy in the room by the river

Yeah it’s all comin’ down on me.

 

Pretend to hurt

Feel it all 

Know nothing

 

Before the bitter pill before the taste of disappointment

Drenched in the feelings of a good childhood

No sound floating in lake 

You’re breathing me

 

Pretend to hurt

Feel it all 

Know nothing

 

Quiet in the afternoon of company

Yeah, that man will drive you crazy.

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Home

 

Light fades early I’m not ready

Night birds quiet in the moonlight

I’ve already seen tomorrow

It looks a lot like this

 

Doubt; she blankets the morning

Can I hide from your truth

Thought I’d fade away by now dear

Nothing left to hold on

 

Can I see the way home?

Can I see the way home?

 

Sickness spreads and I am frozen

Ask me to watch the flame

More to pour myself into

Anything but this pain

 

When the last word is spoken

And I close my eyes to sleep

 

I can see the way home.

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Awake

 

Hear the rain comin’ down

Couldn’t put my finger on

What it was you left behind

Behind those smiling' eyes

 

Picture me a thousand miles

Closer to the quest of time

Can I find your lovin’ hand

In the dark and dust of night

 

Lay me out and leave me cryin’

There’s a hole that was my heart

Never thought I’d chose dyin’

Over wonderin’ where you are tonight

 

Count the words on the page

That changed the life that we made

I fumble with my fate again

Til your midnight sleepy eyes awake

Tell me I’m not good enough

Curse these words in my mind

Can I rise above this hurt

I’ll take your memory there this time.

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Two Girls

 

A blanket of time, this familiar place

That seems so lost in my mind

I lay my hands on the ground

The place that once held that dimpled cheek

 

How can I move on

When the water keeps pulling me back?

Should I stay in the sounds of home

In the stillness of the sky painted to grey

 

We watched the sunset by willow trees

Into the water, our safety

It washed right through our hands

You and I , two girls waking to life

 

Heavy years, this pale blue sky

Between day and night

Then and now, am I old or young

In the quiet of a Midwestern day

 

We watched the sunset by willow trees

Into the water, our safety

It washed right through our hands

You and I, two girls waking to life

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Waterfall

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If my life was a waterfall

Then surely I’d fall into you

I could make it hard

Harder to love me

But then would we see

Such in the end

Finally through mindful advances

This could be more

Than elaborate ends

 

I don’t know where the rain goes

When I’m in your arms

Nothing can touch me

And I can breath

I can breath

 

And later on when my mind’s still

I breath pictures

Pictures of you

And I know there are still places

Places I’ll go to searching for truth

But now I will let myself

Wish I could share it all with you.

 

I don’t know where the rain goes

When I’m in your arms

Nothing can touch me

And I can breath

I can breath

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EP III

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I Feel the Words

 

I feel the words, they’re in my mouth

They come tumblin’ out

One by one, they say it wrong

I’m sorry

I think of you on a sunny day

Why don’t you call

The magic hour, has passed my by

Without a word

 

You don’t know my name

You don’t know my memories of

The day we met, when the sky opened up

You can’t show me how

When I was a lonely child 

And in my dreams I saw you

You don’t know my name.

 

When all is said and all is done

I’ll move to the country

That tickin’ clock, cicada’s cry

And the moon overhead

I feel the words they’re in my mouth

I’m sorry

I wish that I could tell you now

I feel the words, feel the words

 

You don’t know my name

You don’t know my memories of

The day we met when the sky opened up

You don’t know my name

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Maybe

 

Da da da da da….

 

And in the fading light, of yesterday’s forgotten dreams

I reach for you in this frozen land

Yeah I reach for you

 

And in the darkened hour, between my work and sleep

The emptiness and absence of you overwhelms

Yeah and emptiness and absence

 

Maybe…

 

If I could find you tonight, in this misshapen light

Pretending reality, forever changing

Yeah pretending reality

 

Maybe…

I took a wrong turn

 

I can remember your touch, the thrill and the taste so much

You make me come back down to the ground

Yeah you make me come back down

 

Maybe…

I took a wrong turn

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Open

 

I been thinkin’ we need to talk about

The growin’ clouds in our eyes

I been thinki’ we need to talk about

The word we’ll never say: Goodbye

 

Knock three times and I’ll always answer

With an open heart and open eyes

 

I been thinkin’ I need to tell you 

I wanna be someone else

I been thinkin’ I need to go now

I just can’t stand to watch us die

 

Knock three times and I’ll always answer

With an open heart and open eyes

 

I been walkin’ and missin’ you

I whisper to the streets at night

Tell the moon I couldn’t make it

I couldn’t break this trust again.

 

Knock three times and I’ll always answer

With an open heart and open eyes

 

Say the words and break my heart

If you have to go then go I don’t care

I don’t care

 

I been thinkin’ we need to talk about

The growin’ clouds in our eyes

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Yellow Roses

 

Down in my garden I count, I count the years

And I tend my yellow roses

And I weep for you

 

Sometimes the sky is green, not blue

An the air is still and the islands

Can once more be seen

 

My breath is short and the day is long

I chose solitude, long ago

And with it this weight I fear

Will keep me from you

 

On a summer’s eve when the silence is all but killing me

I swear that I can hear your voice

In the birds you named for me

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San Bernard

 

Sun beats down and banks of green

Flies in the shade on a briny wake

Under this washed out sky

I pull my bow across my string

 

Whispers of my fate faded into the wind

Short of who I was before my sin

With water at my heels

Her touch on my hand

 

And the waters of San Bernard move through me now

And if you listen with a heart and an ear like a child’s

You’ll hear my mournful tune

 

She took my heart and I her song

Sweet love turns to the blackest dawn

My body below the river’s surface

My soul extends to sing my purpose

 

And the waters of San Bernard move through me now

And if you listen with a heart and an ear like a child’s

You’ll hear my mournful tune

 

My body below the river’s surface

My soul extends to sing my purpose

And if you listen with a heart and an ear like a child’s

You’ll hear my mournful tune

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EP II

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I Didn't Dream This

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I hear the second hand it’s crying

Compare it to my heart am I dying

In and out I breath this breath and I’m trying

To pretend I was not crying

 

And I’ve got plans to see your face again

I’ve got plans to be away from here

No I didn’t dream this, no I didn’t dream this

 

I made a promise to myself

Not to put it all on the shelf

Muddied up with rain clouds and wine

Maybe I won’t make a mess this time

 

And I’ve got plans to see your face again

I’ve got plans to be away from here

No I didn’t dream this, no I didn’t dream this

 

I made a spectacle today

Just couldn’t think of any other way

Take a step and then back again

The stillness of your heart haunts me still

 

And I’ve got plans to see your face again

I’ve got plans to be away from here

No I didn’t dream this, no I didn’t dream this

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LULLABY

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And I will sing to you a lullaby

I will tell you not to cry

 

I’ll tell you a secret, little girl

It’s in the trees if you listen

It’s in the songs of the birds

It’s all there, the beauty of this life

 

And I will sing to you a lullaby

I will tell you not to cry

 

Remember how your mother holds you

That soft kiss she gives you goodnight

Your little hands remind us

That we were babies too

Long ago memories our mothers cling to

 

Remember little baby that we all love you

Under this big sky and all the coming moons

Under this big sky and all the coming moons

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And I will sing to you a lullaby

I will tell you not to cry

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Seasonal Love

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Summer winds on the grapevine they’re callin’ out to you

Winter memories so faded I wonder if I knew

 

Warm nights green clover I didn’t walk alone

And now I stand in the doorway and there’s a candle lit for you

 

And I miss your touch in the morning so much

That I can’t imagine another season without your love

 

Autumn leaves they carry me back to dark afternoons

Long shadows birds are flyin’ south back to where you roam

 

And I miss your touch in the morning so much

That I can’t imagine another season without your love

 

Winter moon I see you staring right back at me

I wish that I could take you and keep you by my heart

 

And I miss your touch in the morning so much

That I can’t imagine another season without your love

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If I Were a Farmer

 

If I were a farmer I would wake at the break of day

And look out on my fields and pray

How I can reap the wheat just to fill your belly.

 

If I were a hunter I would take the day to stalk my prey

And gently take the life that gives you yours

And your child’s.

 

If I were a messenger I would come and find you

With all of the good news that sets your mind at ease

I wanna set your mind at ease.

 

If I were an acrobat high up on my wire

I’d do back flips and balance just to see your

Smiling face looking up at me

 

If I were a miner I would work from dawn to dusk

And bring you the silver and gold that I found in the hills

That bare your name.

 

If I were a messenger I would come and find you

With all of the good news that sets your mind at ease

I wanna set your mind at ease.

 

If I were a painter you would be my muse

And with every brush stroke I would paint the world for you

And maybe make it easier to bare.

 

If I were a messenger I would come and find you

With all of the good news that sets your mind at ease

I wanna set your mind at ease.

 

If I were a farmer.

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The Woods

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Are you out of the woods yet you ask me again

Are the monsters still clawing behind your eyes, ooo

 

It’s a wonder I’m still standing beside you...alone

It’s a wonder you don’t see the darkness all around me

 

If only I knew the ending right from the start, ooo

Then I would paint our future and I would paint it well

 

It’s a wonder I’m still standing beside you...alone

It’s a wonder you don’t see the darkness all around me

 

One day I’ll be happy and I’ll look back then

Cause life is so crazy and it hurts sometimes

 

It’s a wonder I’m still standing beside you...alone

It’s a wonder you don’t see the darkness all around me

 

Are you out of the woods yet you ask me again.

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EP I

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Distraction

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I go over these lines again

Make sure all my things are in place

When I close my eyes I see your face

If I think a lot I forget the pain

Mark my checklist off

And talk about the rain

 

Saw a picture of you just the other day

You were wearing that hat I still keep

Should have known then we could never be

Seems so silly now, wonder if you think of me

 

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

 

I drive around

Find a place to be good

Remember things that I should

In your quiet now these echoes are all around

I wonder how I can catch that sound

 

Saw a picture of you just the other day

You were wearing that hat I still keep

Should have known then we could never be

Seems so silly now, wonder if you think of me

 

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

 

 

Wild Bird

 

You blanket my cries

I’m a wild wild bird

Undone by the sound

The memory of snow

 

Day and night

I fly around the world

Memories weigh me down

Now time is a glass

And I’m afraid to ask

What that wish was

Long ago now

The soft sinking sand

Breathes all around

 

You blanket my cries

I’m a wild wild bird

I’ll fight for the light

We lost before the war

A single rose

In a withered hand

I wish for you

The soul of the land

 

Youth is gone

Now it’s days between

Memories weigh me down

Now time is a glass

And I’m afraid to ask

What that wish was

Long ago now

The soft sinking sand

Breathes all around

 

Lifeboat

 

Under the cover of night

We hold hands and look into the sky

How lovely stars all around you

And all I do is hope that this will last

Memories forgotten too soon

To understand the reason for goodbye

Yeah to understand the reason for goodbye

 

Gently broken in my hand

I crave again invisible minds

Where we feel something that I see

When I close my eyes and feel past the lies

Yeah when I close my eyes and feel past the lies

 

Far away a lifeboat in the sea

It’s like a dream the waves pulling me

Sometimes when you’re with me

I forget the troubles in my mind

Yeah, I forget the troubles in my mind

 

 

Heartsong

 

Listen can you hear it the voice inside

You can’t see

I know that you don’t care

Whatever came of me

 

But if you listen to my heartsong

I think you’ll find what you need

Four years couldn’t tame your heart

So now I ask you please

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Look how far I’ve come dear

Look how far I can see

Blame will pull us both apart

Now I see

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But if you listen to my heartsong

I think you’ll find what you need

I know there’s day when our love can be

Oh please

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Little Loon

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Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

I can see faces in the trees

Weeping willow hangin’ over me

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

Cherry tree standin’ next to me

Ghosts of what we used to be

Shallow water turns to black

I don’t know if I’m comin’ back

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

Stories of times before

When we were young on the lakeside shore

Little babies they grow up fast

Soon to learn these time won’t last

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

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